Monday, May 14, 2012

Returning to an Old Friend

It's been quite a while since I posted here. This blog was always a way for me to vent, share my thoughts or just get things off my chest. Somehow I got away from posting regularly. I think, at this point in my life, I have too much stress. Writing was a pretty good stress reliever for me and I'm hoping this will help me again. I'm sure I will be doing a lot of bitching on here, so be prepared. There will be a lot of posting from now on (hopefully!).

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

a learning experience

While this new relationship of mine has only been going on for a few months, there are a lot of things that I've learned. I used to say I didn't have time for a boyfriend or even dating. I was never out looking for a guy. I spent all my time in high school wrapped up in my friends, school, Harp's and newspaper/yearbook. Sometimes I thought I was missing out on what I could have. Now I look back and realize that it was better for me to fly solo.

Your college years are all about figuring out who you are and what you want to do with your life. I think that I have pretty much got that covered. I know who I am and what I believe in. I know where I want to be in 10, 20, even 30 years. I've seen too many cases of young people being in 'serious' relationships and it all going wrong eventually. Girls these days tend to depend on guys and think they can't live without one. I am all about independence. Yes, it is very nice to have a guy in my life that I can trust with everything and enjoy spending time with. Although I sometimes don't want to part from him, I understand the fact that we both have our own lives. I don't need to know where he is 24/7. He doesn't have to tell me when or where he's going. It's this thing called trust that we have. We make plans to hang out, see/talk to each other daily and keep each other informed on the important things in life. I really couldn't ask for anything more. I get my time with him and if he wants to spend time with friends, that's cool. I really hate girls that are constantly on their phones asking their boyfriends for a detailed report of their day. Not me.

I've also understand how important quality time is. When we spend time together, I can be myself. I can forget about all the homework I have, or bills to pay, or stresses at work. When we're together, it's all about me and him. It seems like, with him by my side, everything is right in the world. These new adventures in my life are teaching me to take my time. We have the rest of our lives and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure this relationship is the best we can possible make it. I've never been in any kind of relationship before, so everything is a learning experience and we're taking it one step at a time.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Happiness?

So, lately I have been finding myself smiling a lot more and seem to be genuinely happy. Why, the change, you might ask. Well I have come to the conclusion that it is a combination of things.

The first being the fact that I am now living on my own. That's right, I am no longer under the control of my parents. Not that it wasn't nice living at home. Yes, it had it's perks: laundry was always done, food was always prepared and waiting when I came home from class, but there were the not so good things too. I always had my parents, mainly my mother, asking where I was, when I was going to be home, who I was hanging out with, etc. But now, I have no one to answer to! And it's fabulous. I can come and go as I please, skip class and not explain myself to anyone, eat whatever and whenever, leave things where ever I want. It's pretty great living on my own.

The second thing that makes me happy is a certain guy. We have worked together for almost four years now, known of each others existence all our lives and have been sort of dating for the last four months, I think. We have only been out three times, due to our busy work schedules and my school schedule. He has become one of my best friends. I can talk to him about almost everything. He's the one I turn to when something bad, or good, happens. I look forward to work on the days I get to work with him, which is not many. He makes me happy! I love it when he says extra nice things to me when no one else is around. I often find myself making up reasons to go to work on the nights he's there just to see him. I believe I am truly happy when we are together, and I hope this never changes.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Best Birthday. EVER!

So my 20th birthday was pretty fantastic. It fell on a Monday, so I decided to take every opportunity to celebrate the weekend before.

Friday night I went to a movie with a guy I work with. It was really great to get away from work and hang out with someone I enjoy spending time with.

Saturday night was spent with two of my best friends. We had dinner and then just hung out and talked like old times. Every time we spend time together, which isn't very often, we always say we're going to do it more often. I wish we would actually do things more often instead of just saying we will. Sometimes my life is too busy for a social life and I HATE it!

Sunday was just another day at work and then homework. But Monday was the best day of all. I skipped all of my classes. (Come on, it was my birthday!) When my parents came home we all went out to eat at Logan's and my mom made my favorite kind of cake: lemon with cream cheese icing. :) But the BEST part of all was my best friend called me, long distance from Oxford, just to wish me Happy Birthday! If that's not an awesome bestie, I don't know what is!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Happy 20th to Me!

Woo Hoo! 20th post on my 20th Birthday.
I love Birthdays. They are so much fun.

I'm so excited to not be a teenager any more! I plan on having a lot more fun in my twenties than I did as a teenager!

Maybe my parents will stop treating me like a kid since I'm not a kid anymore.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Almost 20!

It is exactly two weeks until my 20th birthday! I have to say I am way more excited for this birthday than last year. I'm not sure what the exact reason for this is. I have not asked for anything for my birthday, so it is not the prospect of a great gift. Although I could think of a few things that would be great to receive. (Maybe my parents finally saying yes to a trip... I know, not gonna happen.) It could be the fact that I will no longer be a teenager. Thank God! It's just too exciting.
I really want to get together with my some of my closest friends and celebrate this birthday. Maybe that's why I'm excited. Who knows. I guess we'll find out in two weeks!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Missing Bernice

Oh I forgot to mention. My very best friend is at Oxford and I miss her terribly! I want to go visit her sooooo bad but I have the ridiculously over protective parents that won't let me leave the state let alone the country! It would be so fantastic to travel to Paris with her but my parents are dream crushers. I can only count down the days until she comes home and I can have my Bestie back!