a learning experience

While this new relationship of mine has only been going on for a few months, there are a lot of things that I've learned. I used to say I didn't have time for a boyfriend or even dating. I was never out looking for a guy. I spent all my time in high school wrapped up in my friends, school, Harp's and newspaper/yearbook. Sometimes I thought I was missing out on what I could have. Now I look back and realize that it was better for me to fly solo.

Your college years are all about figuring out who you are and what you want to do with your life. I think that I have pretty much got that covered. I know who I am and what I believe in. I know where I want to be in 10, 20, even 30 years. I've seen too many cases of young people being in 'serious' relationships and it all going wrong eventually. Girls these days tend to depend on guys and think they can't live without one. I am all about independence. Yes, it is very nice to have a guy in my life that I can trust with everything and enjoy spending time with. Although I sometimes don't want to part from him, I understand the fact that we both have our own lives. I don't need to know where he is 24/7. He doesn't have to tell me when or where he's going. It's this thing called trust that we have. We make plans to hang out, see/talk to each other daily and keep each other informed on the important things in life. I really couldn't ask for anything more. I get my time with him and if he wants to spend time with friends, that's cool. I really hate girls that are constantly on their phones asking their boyfriends for a detailed report of their day. Not me.

I've also understand how important quality time is. When we spend time together, I can be myself. I can forget about all the homework I have, or bills to pay, or stresses at work. When we're together, it's all about me and him. It seems like, with him by my side, everything is right in the world. These new adventures in my life are teaching me to take my time. We have the rest of our lives and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure this relationship is the best we can possible make it. I've never been in any kind of relationship before, so everything is a learning experience and we're taking it one step at a time.

Happiness?

So, lately I have been finding myself smiling a lot more and seem to be genuinely happy. Why, the change, you might ask. Well I have come to the conclusion that it is a combination of things.

The first being the fact that I am now living on my own. That's right, I am no longer under the control of my parents. Not that it wasn't nice living at home. Yes, it had it's perks: laundry was always done, food was always prepared and waiting when I came home from class, but there were the not so good things too. I always had my parents, mainly my mother, asking where I was, when I was going to be home, who I was hanging out with, etc. But now, I have no one to answer to! And it's fabulous. I can come and go as I please, skip class and not explain myself to anyone, eat whatever and whenever, leave things where ever I want. It's pretty great living on my own.

The second thing that makes me happy is a certain guy. We have worked together for almost four years now, known of each others existence all our lives and have been sort of dating for the last four months, I think. We have only been out three times, due to our busy work schedules and my school schedule. He has become one of my best friends. I can talk to him about almost everything. He's the one I turn to when something bad, or good, happens. I look forward to work on the days I get to work with him, which is not many. He makes me happy! I love it when he says extra nice things to me when no one else is around. I often find myself making up reasons to go to work on the nights he's there just to see him. I believe I am truly happy when we are together, and I hope this never changes.